Tired of Trying

[Verse 1] You turn away when I reach for your hand I smile, but you don’t even try to understand You used to lean in, now you lean out I light the fire but you're full of doubt I brought flowers, softened my tone Watched movies I hate, just to not feel alone I tried slow dancing in the kitchen light But you just stood there, lost in the night [Pre-Chorus] I kissed you like I meant it You kissed me like a habit I stayed up praying for a spark But love don’t grow in the dark [Chorus] I’m tired of trying, tired of fights Tired of sleeping cold at night Tired of reaching through this space Where your touch used to feel like grace I’ve bent myself a thousand ways To feel you love me like you used to say But now I see what I’ve been denying You’re not in this… and I’m tired of trying [Verse 2] Your lips don’t linger, your words don’t land You pull away like I’m not part of your plan I lit candles, I wrote down my fears Told you truths I hadn’t in years I begged with silence, I pleaded in smiles You gave me presence, but only for a while I talked, you nodded a script we play But every scene feels thrown away [Pre-Chorus] I held you like a life time You held back every lifeline I kept watering dead ground And waited for a heart that never turned around [Chorus] I’m tired of trying, tired of lies Tired of hearing “I’m just tired” replies Tired of chasing what won’t be found While you stand still and watch me drown I’ve broken down, I’ve built back walls Loved you quiet, loved you raw But love like this feels more like dying So I’m done… I’m tired of trying [Bridge] Maybe I should’ve let go sooner Maybe love’s not supposed to beg But I thought you were worth the ruin Now I’m left with what I never said [Final Chorus] I’m tired of hoping you’ll come back Tired of carrying what we lack Tired of lighting every flame Just to watch you turn away You were home, you were my fight But I can’t live in wrong turned right So this is me, finally deciding I’m tired of trying